Today has been a good day.
The kind that ends on a comforting note, like the end of your favourite song:
you feel content.
The sun is brighter and warm streaming in from the open window
and a calmness is about the room that hasn't been in a little while.
New changes bring new challenges and the most rewarding thing is being able to overcome what you fear not by only facing it, but by accepting that: new fear is apart of a new life and new, unknown, beginnings. Looking into a dark tunnel is nerve-wracking, but how you look into it is more important.
This is a life lesson I am being pelted with at every angle.
Acceptance, embracement, perspective.
The struggle to want to be bitter when you know that your mood is affecting the circumstance.
Of saying what you say even though you probably shouldn't say it only to regret it later on and have its results coat the rest of your day like frosting on a cake.
Sometimes I will blurt out stupid thoughts only to realize after that they weren't fully processed enough to publish. But they will linger in the air all day after they've been said. And that is the worst feeling.
Gutted by your own language. Betrayed by your words.
But today, after struggling with this feeling over and over I finally just decided that the world doesn't revolve around me people actually think less about me than I care to realize. I embraced the day as a part of a life I am building and creating
and accepted that sometimes, parts will suck. And I am not perfect.
But I will continue to step over these low moments
and carry on.